you don't have forever


please don't ever think you have forever.
because you don't.

you think you have time but
do you really know that?

cherish every little thing.
even the stuff you think doesn't matter.

because one day,
possibly even soon,

you'll be wishing with all your heart and soul
you could relive it just one more time.


(I know this is random and you all want updates on my life, which I will give,
but this has been on my mind a lot lately so here you go :)


*crickets chirping, probably*

Hehe. Hi, guysssss. It's been a really long time, lol. PLEASE FORGIVE ME. I promise I have really good excuses. 😂  Life has been absolutely insane. Just when you think things are slowing down something else comes up. Not that that's always a bad thing, it's just busy! And I started senior year!!! So excited and ready. But more on that later!! 

Today we are talking about my dear friend, Kate, and her NEWLY-RELEASED BOOK WHATTTT?!?!?! I'm super excited for The Blood Race. I tried to make an aesthetic and everything. HAHA, this was my first aesthetic ever so hopefully, it's okay. 😂
(and technically, the blog tour is over as of yesterday, but I decided to post this anyway because I'm a rebel 😎)

I don't know how many of you have talked to Kate/know her personally, but she is literally amazing. One of my favorite people on planet Earth, probably. She inspires me daily and I am SO PROUD of her and this book!!! Kate has a fire inside her bones that can never be extinguished, and her passion shows so strongly through her writing. I have been enjoying her blog for nearly two years and every single post blows me away. So juST IMAGINE HOW GOOD THIS BOOK MUST BE!!! I just asdfghjkl. >>>yep, that pretty much sums it up.

Here's the synopsis that will get you totally hyped:


He’s spent his life running from who he is. She’s been trying to escape her past for 100 years…

Born with unexplainable abilities he struggles to control, college student Ion tries desperately to integrate into his new school and finally put his dark past behind him. But after making a serious enemy, which leads to an accidental rendezvous with the mysterious old man next door— and his hauntingly beautiful but troubled young protégée Hawk, Ion realizes his life will never be normal again.
Late one evening, Hawk drags him by the hand into a closet-turned-rabbit-hole to an extra dimension, and Ion finds himself stumbling involuntarily into a secret society of training for “anomalies,” teenagers with a special set of abilities. Just like him.
As they train to become Protectors of future Earth, battling each other as well as their own demons, both Ion and Hawk begin to realize that they are far more alike than they realized. Unsettlingly so.
When the Dimension is shaken by an unthinkable betrayal, will an ancient prophecy bring Hawk and Ion together—or will a deadly threat hidden in plain sight cost them both their powers… and their lives?



I'ts been awhile. Shew, life has been crazy!! But we aren't here today to talk about what a terrible blogger I have been.

I am turning 16 in like, two more days.

*throws confetti* *eats cake 'til I'm sick* 
So in honor of this "milestone" I made a little video to recap my 15th year! I literally JUST made this video and I didn't even plan it, so there is no pretty thumbnail, or an aesthetically pleasing blog post to go with it! XD Unexpected vlogs are the best, right?!?! Yes. Thought so. ;)

Here's to celebrating another year of life and the God who gave it to me. He never ceases to amaze me. 💗

HIDE-AND-SEEK (a navy blue memory)

they grabbed the flashlights, I stole my mom's boots
I can't tell you what color the sky was because I've seen too many sunsets since
but I do remember that as we crossed the barb wire fence I was trying my hardest to take all the beauty in
I'm afraid it was too much for my little heart to handle

it was a new game they were showing us
the concept was a lot like hide-and-seek but with a twist
the seekers had a spotlight
and if the light shined on you, you were "captured"

after the rules were explained, we began
and as the seekers counted to sixty, we all scrambled around trying to find the best hiding spot
I probably tried out three different spots before I settled in the corner of a little shed in the middle of the field
I stood tight in my spot and caught my breath

it was completely quiet besides the seekers that were running around
I could see the light bouncing off the trees and my shed
my heart was pounding
but then I began to think

thoughts probably too deep for an eleven-year-old girl
I looked up into the navy blue sky
gosh, it was beautiful up there
and I sighed happily

because here I was living
my boots were muddy ("my mom will kill me") and I was shivering from the cold but I was living
I thought about life and how precious it is and how I am here
I thought things I couldn't even fathom

I smiled at the stars and they were smiling right back
I was smiling at God too (I know He was smiling back)
my heart was screaming "thank you"
for being in this wet field playing hide-and-seek under the stars with new friends

oh, and by the way,
I won