// "okay" //

i have often previously asked myself the question, 

"am i "okay" with God?"

what a rough spot to be in.

I personally hope I am never "okay" with God. 

I want to be more than that. 
I want to be on FIRE for God. 
not just questioning if i'm okay. 
sometimes we get this mindset that as long as we can make it into heaven by the skin 
of our teeth, we are fine. 
but, wheres the purpose in that? 
we make it in, but we have no treasures to lay at God's feet. 
we have nothing to show. 
I think that would be pretty.. shameful. 
so instead of worrying how far is to far, how about, how close can we get?!
this life isn't about us anyways. 
we are here for one purpose, and one purpose only. to give Him glory. 
giving your entire life up to God is "our reasonable service". 
and sometimes, or should i say a lot of times, that means giving many things you like up. 
but that's okay. 
we aren't here for ourselves anyway! 
we need to learn to be okay with giving our all. 
actually more than okay. 
learn to be happy to give your all. 
sometimes this means to go overseas and be a missionary with the risk of your life, 
or it might be that you have special talents to use, or giving up something you have, or like.
It can be big or small. 
both are equally as important when done with true obedience.
I strive for this, myself. 
I want to be the person who is thrilled at the thought of even dying for Jesus' name. 
I want to be so far gone in Him that nothing can distract me. 
I want my eyes to be fixed on Him, and Him alone. 

stay on fire. 
never be lukewarm. 
never, ever, lose your wonder for Him. 

Aaliyah xoxo

// forgiveness //

its not an easy task.
we are told to forgive, but sometimes its easier said than done. 
i've experienced that personally alot.

but i was recently reminded of a beautiful picture. 
Jesus on the cross.
even when the soldiers were beating him cruelly, so cruelly we probably couldn't put into words, people spat in His face, and mocked Him for something He was innocent of, His words were:
"Father, forgive them. For they know not what they do."

i don't know about you guys, but one of my biggest things that aggravates me about people, is either lying about me, or accusing me of something they either have no evidence of, or isn't true to begin with.  it really gets under my skin. and sadly, people do that to me often.
i get so upset and angry and ask, "what did i ever do to them?!"
but instead of holding a grudge, or being unforgiving, i have learned to forgive.
i deal with this to often than i would like to have too.
i don't know why, but almost every "friend" ive ever had except the few i have been able to
weed out, always back-bite me, and treat me wrongly, when i have done no wrong to them.
it hurts. a lot. 
people will  wrong you. it happens.
should they? no.
but they do.
i'm not saying AT ALL i am even near perfect in this area.
but you will have a whole lot happier life when you learn to forgive.
people have literally chewed me out before over something i didn't even do,
but you know what i do?
i smile, and respond with "okay. well, ill talk to you later! i love you!"
so instead of feeding it, which is what the person usually wants you to do,
throw it back at them with kindness! it works every time i promise ;)
for some, there are bigger problems that they have that requires forgiveness.
for some, smaller.
but either way, being forgiving is always something we should strive to do.
"A soft answer turneth away wrath." Proverbs 15:1

but back to the Jesus picture.
so many times we think forgiveness is so hard. (and it is but just stay with me ;) )
but Jesus went through SO much. yet, He never was angry with them.
it amazes me.
Jesus is, and always will be the perfect example of how our character should be.

i don't exactly know where i'm going with this, but its just something that has been on
my heart and i thought i would share.

xoxo A.M.

// worship wednesday //

wow i should win a "Worst Blogger" award.
I forgot "Music Monday" once again.
Things have just been SO crazy lately. With a family moving in, we've had to help unpack them, and just all the things that come along with having 20 people in my small house, is a challenge, which is why my blog has been pushed to the bottom of my to-do list.

So this week, I have yet another Lauren Daigle song, cause shes fab.
This song is really amazing and I love it!

"I am Yours" by Lauren Daigle.

Aaliyah xoxo