DEAR PAST SELF


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I wish I could go back to my old self a few months ago and tell her, from the future, that everything was going to be okay.
Would she have believed it?
Who knows.
But I really want to tell her.
I want to tell her that it's just a season like she hoped.
That things would be better.
So much better.
That the nights crying herself to sleep will be a testimony of God's faithfulness and how the river in the wasteland really does come this time too.
I want to tell her that even though she can't see it from where she is there is a light coming her way.
That God forgives and loves her even though she doesn't believe it.
I'd tell her that she isn't all alone.
I would tell her everything I love about her and every reason to exist.
That she may never understand but that's okay.
I'd tell her that she'd pull through just fine.

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  1. Aghhhhhhhhhhh Aaliyah it is moments like this that I wish that I could just drive to Kentucky and give you the biggest hug in the world. <3 You're beautiful and wonderful and ily.

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    1. Ughhhhhh thank you so much :'''')
      I love you too!!! <3
      Please drive to Kentucky. Just do it. I'll take the hug :))))

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  2. This is so meaningful and thoughtful to wish you could have said this to your past self. The concept of talking to your past self and future self is always an interesting thing. I really loved this post and you've always got us to give you support when you need it.

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    1. Thank you so, so much, Vanessa :)))

      I always thought it was interesting too... There's just something about sitting and writing a letter to your past self.. You realize how far you've come. But you hurt a lot too.

      That means a lot! I know you all are always here :)))

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  3. ^^^^ SAME CAN I JUST DRIVE DOWN THERE AND HAVE COFFEE WITH YOU OR SOMETHING.
    This was so so encouraging, and even if you wish you could have told your older self this, it's helped me, in my current self, and for that I thank you. Wow. I love how your theme is sorta that God makes rivers in the wastelands. That is so inspiring, like really. Love this post ♥

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    1. HAHAHHAHAHAHA YES PLEASE DO I WOULD CRY I WOULD LOVE THAT SO MUCH!!!

      Thank you. Truly :) You are so welcome. WAH I'M GONNA CRY.

      That is my theme, hehe!! You noticed!! It is my hope and my anchor. <3

      Thank you again :)

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  4. This was beautiful and comforting and GAH. :')
    You are so mega-talented, Aaliyah. Don't ever stop writing!! ♥♥

    ~Megan<333
    (megans-journals.blogspot.com)

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    1. This comment.

      UGH THANK YOU SERIOUSLY SO MUCH WOW.

      That means SO MUCH. I won't ;)

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  5. This is literally what everyone needs to 'hear' from their future self, no matter what. It's so applicable. Thanks for sharing <3

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    1. I so agree!! You're so welcome. I am thrilled you like it :)

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  6. I'd tell her that I'm crying because of the words and the heart that came out of that fire :') good feels rn.

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    1. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I REALLY DO. THIS COMMENT >>>>>>>>>>>>>>

      good grief, I just can't handle. luv u

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  7. my eyes are leaking, love bucket xx -jr

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    1. my eys are leaking too, love bucket xx-am

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  8. ohhhh, Aaliyah this is beautiful and you are beautiful and my eyes were stinging through this, especially at: "I want to tell her that even though she can't see it from where she is there is a light coming her way."

    Thank you for taking that fire in your heart, and giving it voice in the English language, and then turning around and giving it to *us*. Like wow...you have no idea how much this spoke to me, and how much *i needed this* *I need this*

    Love you so much, girl. I'm with Grace Anne...can we just all come to Kentucky and group hug rn?? like seriously

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    1. KATTIIIEEEE!!! It took me forever to answer this after I seen it because HOW AM I EVEN SUPPOSED TO RESPOND???!!!!!????

      ughh

      I'm so glad this touched you and helped you :) I really am. That's the goal. And yes, That line gets me too.

      You are so welcome for everything WAHHH!!! I CAN'T HANDLE!! I just want to hug you so hard *laughing emojis* *crying emojis* *heart emojis*

      yes plz do come to ky

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  9. Well, now I have tears in my eyes. Because I needed this. I need this so much. I look back at my "old self" of a few months ago and want to go back because she was the one who sincerely believed in love and goodness and that it would be okay. And then she got kind of confused and lost and afraid. So, she's currently on her way back and sometimes she/I need the reminder that this really is for my good and His glory. Thank you providing that with your lovely words.

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